On A Personal Note
Greetings to you..my friends, my Angels and LepLovers...
Today I feel compelled to post a personal entry in my blog to set the record straight for the ones I love. Please bear with me and forgive me for dragging my personal sh*t out into Blogland...I feel I have no other choice.
It has been brought to my attention on numerouse occasions that my DefLep obsession as well as my occasional "LepLusting" on my own Blog as well as others is becoming detrimental to my personal life. Because of these comments & my explanations for them being taken in vain and with disbelief I am hereby defending myself once again.
I apoligize if something I truly enjoy and sometimes use as my escape from the everyday bullsh*t in life has been offending a certain person in my life. This was not my intention EVER...and no matter how hard I try to explain it or attempt to prove that my actions are simply meant in fun and totally innocent..I am forever accused of the opposite.
YES...I love DefLeppard...YES...I think Phil is an amazing guitarist and an attractive man...they all are!! For most of my teenage and early twenties years ...truth be told, I had it BAD for Joe...that does NOT mean, however, that even given the opportunity I would EVER do anything with ANY of them (physically or otherwise) that would cause permanent damage to my personal life. My oggling and ranting on this blog site and others, as well as personal conversations with my dearest friends are ALL IN FUN..."GIRL TALK" if you will and nothing more. I know that I shouldn't speak for everyone... but I know for myself....I would never & could never take it any further then a simple flirtation with any member of the band. YES..that includes Mr. Collen!!! I don't meant that to insult anyone...I'm not saying that any of my friends would or are wrong for feeling differently. So please , don't misunderstand me.
This is me we're talking about and I know myself...Iknow my heart and I know where my loyalties and passions lie. And they dont belong to a certain blonde haired englishman. They belong to a hot sexy italian who I am have been hopelessly in love with for some 21 years!!!
Again...I apologize for dragging my personal sh*t out here where it probably doesn't belong ..but...I don't know what else to do. I feel helpless and hopeless in my plight to defend myself.
In a world of personal turmoil, family illness, over abundant stress, teenage suicide, teen angst, learning disabilities, overbooked work schedules, dis-functional family issues and the list goes on and on...I'm sorry if my form of escapism (on any level) has hurt or aroused any doubt of where my loyalties lie.
I tend to be a bit obsessive and overly romantic as well as possess an over-active imagination. Which may not always be a bad thing..as my novels have shown. (If they go anywhere that is?!?!?) The hopeless romantic .vs. the overly logical is a war that I feel cannot be won and its killing me.
I am an emotional, sometimes irrational, passionate person...I am a woman afterall...and aren't most of us the same??? My soul cries out for acceptance and attention for the unique person that I am...not for critism for what I am not or the times I fall short. My love for my husband and my children runs deeper than anything I've ever known and regardless of what happens in life...I would NEVER betray that or forsake it!
I'm just so tired of having to defend myself and my actions when they are solely meant in jest! What is so horribly wrong with being a 40 year old housewife who gets to be a 20 year old girl that chats & obsesses with a few friends every now and again. I don't necessarily wanna grow up and I def. don't wanna get old...so if I don't feel it or look it...why should I? I'm not trying to hurt anyone and my conversations were not meant for anyone else but my fellow obsessors & friends to view. I am not running off with anyone...I'm not a groupie...I'm just an over-zealous fan! ! This is what I enjoy...its "my place" to just hang out & be young again,, to somtimes be the person I don't get to be on a daily basis. It's a great place to visit...but I don't wanna live there!
Again...my Friends...my Angels and "Moms" and "Wives"...I sincerely apologize for my ranting. I just dont know what else to do...or where to turn....how to make my explanation fall upon understanding ears that will truly HEAR and not just
listen! I hope you all understand where I'm coming from and don't think me stupid or crazy for this entry...If you know how I feel or can sympathize...please let me know. I'm feeling pretty alone right now and lost!
Thanks for listening...I promise next time I'll be alittle more upbeat!!
I appreciate your friendship, compassion and understanding!!!
Love & hugs to you all....
LISA
Words for the day: (No Lepps today...Sarah speaks instead)..."Heaven bend to take my hand and lead me through the fire...Be the long awaited answer to a long and painful fight. Truth be told I tried my best but somewhere along the way...I got caught up in all there was to offer..But the cost was so much more than I could bear...
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up...better I should know
So don't come around here and tell me I told you so...
"We all begin with good intent, when love is raw and young.
We believe that we can change ourselves, the past can be undone.
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals.
In the lonely light of morning...in the wound that would not heal.
It's the bitter taste of losing everything I 've held so dear....."
Today I feel compelled to post a personal entry in my blog to set the record straight for the ones I love. Please bear with me and forgive me for dragging my personal sh*t out into Blogland...I feel I have no other choice.
It has been brought to my attention on numerouse occasions that my DefLep obsession as well as my occasional "LepLusting" on my own Blog as well as others is becoming detrimental to my personal life. Because of these comments & my explanations for them being taken in vain and with disbelief I am hereby defending myself once again.
I apoligize if something I truly enjoy and sometimes use as my escape from the everyday bullsh*t in life has been offending a certain person in my life. This was not my intention EVER...and no matter how hard I try to explain it or attempt to prove that my actions are simply meant in fun and totally innocent..I am forever accused of the opposite.
YES...I love DefLeppard...YES...I think Phil is an amazing guitarist and an attractive man...they all are!! For most of my teenage and early twenties years ...truth be told, I had it BAD for Joe...that does NOT mean, however, that even given the opportunity I would EVER do anything with ANY of them (physically or otherwise) that would cause permanent damage to my personal life. My oggling and ranting on this blog site and others, as well as personal conversations with my dearest friends are ALL IN FUN..."GIRL TALK" if you will and nothing more. I know that I shouldn't speak for everyone... but I know for myself....I would never & could never take it any further then a simple flirtation with any member of the band. YES..that includes Mr. Collen!!! I don't meant that to insult anyone...I'm not saying that any of my friends would or are wrong for feeling differently. So please , don't misunderstand me.
This is me we're talking about and I know myself...Iknow my heart and I know where my loyalties and passions lie. And they dont belong to a certain blonde haired englishman. They belong to a hot sexy italian who I am have been hopelessly in love with for some 21 years!!!
Again...I apologize for dragging my personal sh*t out here where it probably doesn't belong ..but...I don't know what else to do. I feel helpless and hopeless in my plight to defend myself.
In a world of personal turmoil, family illness, over abundant stress, teenage suicide, teen angst, learning disabilities, overbooked work schedules, dis-functional family issues and the list goes on and on...I'm sorry if my form of escapism (on any level) has hurt or aroused any doubt of where my loyalties lie.
I tend to be a bit obsessive and overly romantic as well as possess an over-active imagination. Which may not always be a bad thing..as my novels have shown. (If they go anywhere that is?!?!?) The hopeless romantic .vs. the overly logical is a war that I feel cannot be won and its killing me.
I am an emotional, sometimes irrational, passionate person...I am a woman afterall...and aren't most of us the same??? My soul cries out for acceptance and attention for the unique person that I am...not for critism for what I am not or the times I fall short. My love for my husband and my children runs deeper than anything I've ever known and regardless of what happens in life...I would NEVER betray that or forsake it!
I'm just so tired of having to defend myself and my actions when they are solely meant in jest! What is so horribly wrong with being a 40 year old housewife who gets to be a 20 year old girl that chats & obsesses with a few friends every now and again. I don't necessarily wanna grow up and I def. don't wanna get old...so if I don't feel it or look it...why should I? I'm not trying to hurt anyone and my conversations were not meant for anyone else but my fellow obsessors & friends to view. I am not running off with anyone...I'm not a groupie...I'm just an over-zealous fan! ! This is what I enjoy...its "my place" to just hang out & be young again,, to somtimes be the person I don't get to be on a daily basis. It's a great place to visit...but I don't wanna live there!
Again...my Friends...my Angels and "Moms" and "Wives"...I sincerely apologize for my ranting. I just dont know what else to do...or where to turn....how to make my explanation fall upon understanding ears that will truly HEAR and not just
listen! I hope you all understand where I'm coming from and don't think me stupid or crazy for this entry...If you know how I feel or can sympathize...please let me know. I'm feeling pretty alone right now and lost!
Thanks for listening...I promise next time I'll be alittle more upbeat!!
I appreciate your friendship, compassion and understanding!!!
Love & hugs to you all....
LISA
Words for the day: (No Lepps today...Sarah speaks instead)..."Heaven bend to take my hand and lead me through the fire...Be the long awaited answer to a long and painful fight. Truth be told I tried my best but somewhere along the way...I got caught up in all there was to offer..But the cost was so much more than I could bear...
Though I've tried I've fallen
I have sunk so low
I messed up...better I should know
So don't come around here and tell me I told you so...
"We all begin with good intent, when love is raw and young.
We believe that we can change ourselves, the past can be undone.
But we carry on our back the burdens time always reveals.
In the lonely light of morning...in the wound that would not heal.
It's the bitter taste of losing everything I 've held so dear....."
posted by Maggie James at 12:10 PM
9 Comments:
I know how you feel. I too, am accused of "obsessing" about the Leps. It's a form of escapism. Nothing more- nothing less. I would never take it to the point of action.
I too have been married to a loving, giving man for almost 21 years. And thankfully, he knows that my "attraction" to a certain lead singer is not anything to be worried about. But if it helps get you through what is often a tough situation in life ( and I know a bit about those right now!!) Then what's the harm??
That's from a 46 yr old wife and mother of 3, who can still get stars in her eyes for a tall, handsome Brit. Hell, as far as I'm concerned, if I stop being affected by a handsome man- He'd better start worrying about my "mental health"!! And I know that there is a better chance for a snowball in hell, than of anything coming from that. But it's still fun to dream. And dreams are still possible for mom's and wives. We are, after all- HUMAN!
Well I don't know who your accusers are, but if it's not your hubby then who cares? You're among females here who understand because we all do the same thing ~ have girly chats and fun about a bunch of guys in a band that we admire. So what? Unless we're out to screw the asses off these guys (as IF!!) it's harmless as hell.
And by the way Lisa, this is YOUR blog, and the whole point of YOUR blog is to be able to post anything YOU want to!! So rant away darlin'!
P.S.~ how is your father in law doing?
Well said, ladies.
Hey Lisa, if they can't take a joke or have put their sense of humor on hold for far too long,
**** 'em, :D
Not having some kind of ~outlet~ for your dreams/fantasies/peace of mind is very unhealthy and can gradually seep into reality leaving us with the feeling that something is missing.
A good dose of fantasy, tempered with a respectable amount of self disipline can keep us sane.
IMHO. :D
discipline...oops. :)
It's late.
While there are a handful of fans who take 'obsession' to a whole new level, more of us are simply fascinated by this band, and love them to pieces. Is it any different than the "Dead Heads" of the 60's?
You don't have anything to apologize for....and you don't need to defend yourself. I am so totally gone when I see Joe onstage, but I come back to reality when the show is over. To me, our little 'obsession' is nothing more than a little piece of heaven in an otherwise shit world. I am a fan of THE MUSIC, as well as the men performing. I see NOTHING wrong with it!
Well said, Kim!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!!!!
Oh, Happy Birthday, gal. :D
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